Wow, i had forgotten i even posted in this thread until i got a 'like,' kinda pathetic in a way, how we forget what we've done so quickly. When i began to read my post the song Last Known Surroundings by Explosions in the Sky was about 1/2 of the way finished and as i read i felt like i was in a movie type time lapse, it was very strange but worth noting how sometimes you get that song at the perfect time as an event and it just makes the event seem so much more...defined.

When i read my post now I can see how much younger i was.. I can feel how much I've matured and changed since that post. God that post was from over 3 years ago. Its kind of alarming to me how much I've changed, how different my life is now than when i posted that. Its a strange and somewhat humbling feeling, difficult to put into words. But anyway.. Although my life is drastically different than it was then and even though so much has changed within those 3 years I feel to a point i have ignored my own youthful advice. I feel years ago i had different motivations than i do today, in regards to love. I feel as though i discount things in my current relationship that are too hard to deal with or something like that and in a way just chalk it up to "well what can i do?" thats wrong. I dont know the complexities of my relationship its hard to put a word on a dice with so many sides but i know that most of the time, im pretty happy, and for right now, thats good enough.

When i had written that post i was still in high school and during high school i had attached myself to quotes, i loved the feeling of reading a truly inspiring well thought out one liner. I believed (and still do to a point) that everything anyone ever wanted to say has already been said and in a much better way than we could ever say it. I bring this up because what really brought me back and what really astonished me was the quote i used; "In All That We Do, Let Us Do It For Love." What a fantastic quote. It upsets me that after making it such a staple in my post back than i haven't lived true to it, hopefully bringing it back to my attention will change that. It really is an astonishingly simplistic example of how people should run their lives.



Regardless of how much ive changed my ideas still remain the same as they did years ago, i still believe theres 2 distinct yet different types of love; but perhaps they're not always as black and white as i had thought then. But God i hope my grammar and writing abilities have gotten better in the last 3 years.